Gazal

Gazal, Naam hi itna sundar tha ki I could not resist telling her that. When I came closer to telling her that, I realised that Unki Muskaan bhi bahut sundar hai, and thora time baat karne ke baad ehsaas hua ki she is a beautiful Human being, and human connection bas abhi ki hello tak hi nahi rahega.

Mein baat kar rha hu 2012 ki. I was at Sharda University for International Youth Forum for 5 days jahaan 10 Countries se 400 ke lagbhag log aaye hue the.

It’s not an easy thing for me to write this. For almost a month, I have been grieving inside and coming to terms with losing a friend—someone who would often call/message me for guidance ya kabhi bas yu hi. Yes, We lost her to a Road Accident earlier this month.

This Patiala Girl had moved to Mumbai to Study and fulfil her Dreams. 

IYF par to bas 5-10 minute baat hui par Facebook kept us in touch. 2014 mein jab mein Bombay gaya, then she called ki mujhe milna hai and was there at 9 a.m. Gappe maari, and then we hopped from Cafe Mondegar to other Cafes in Kala Ghoda.

Bombay mein phir mulaqat hui and then almost har EK saal baad Dilli mein. 

She moved on from her studies to her job and kept rising until this young girl decided ki kuch aur karna hai.

Last year, I was in Dharamshala. Wapas aakar Pic daali. She told me she was there too, handling a few B&B-type properties and was super happy.

In March, she was in Delhi, and bola Tikku Bhaiya Milna ha, so we fixed a time for CP.

Mera Shoot tha, socha wahi se nikal jaunga. And then I forgot. Par pata nahi kyu mera shoot ka mann nahi kiya and something told me ki kabhi aur aayenge yeh waala shoot karne and I went to office. Then she called me ki CP Kahaan mile, and I realised, Milna tha aaj! I requested her ki, if comfortable, office aa Jaao In Mayapuri. I had messed up my calendar that day.

She said, jahaan bologe wahaan aaungi, Kyuki MILNA HAI.

She came to the office, Hugged, talked and promised to meet again—Bas yeh Last wala hi nahi hua & na Hoga Kabhi. I never knew I was seeing this fantastic Girl, jo Bahut pyaar se Tikku Bhaiya kehti thi, for the last time.

I can fathom all by saying ki Jo hota hai acche ke liye hota hai, par a Young Death is not accepted—samajh nahi aata.

Gazal, You Surely lived your life to the fullest. You were heading to Pushkar to start a cafe, and we talked a lot about it. Ab na woh Cafe hoga and shayad ab mein kabhi Pushkar nahi jaunga. 

Wherever you are, keep Spreading Smiles, my Friend. You will be Missed, bahut Zyada.

PS: Wrote this 11 Months Back 30 July 2023, and Was able to Publish it today, 31st July 2024.